41. That's painfully logical. True, though. I was involved in my school's dramatic productions for five years, acting in/stage managing maybe a dozen productions. If I just psych myself up for a project or a big social event the way I would for a character I'm taking on, it's easier. I convince myself that I feel confident, and then I just do... It's pretty cool. =]
42. The counselor I saw this summer was a woman who goes to my church, who is good friends with my mom, who I've known my entire life. I hadn't spoken to her in a few years, but it was awkward... And somehow I still managed to break down crying in front of her and was barely able to stop talking the entire first session. I told her pretty much everything I could get out in a single hour.
43. I have another journal, too. It started at first for a specific set of disordered behaviors that I was encouraging at the time, and now I just put pretty much anything semi-private there. I say "semi-private" because I have friends for that journal as well, a lot of them-- but they don't know me IRL. They only know me online. Only one of them is also a friend on this journal.
46. Grr. That's such a tease. That's like saying, "I have a secret-- but I'm not gonna tell you!" =6
48. That's funny. I used to run an entirely public journal, even after years of having multiple nasty surprises when someone I didn't know was reading read something they shouldn't have; I never learned. Only now have I started using the friends-only and locked options. There are just too many random people I half-know on campus finding my journal this year, and I'd like to make sure I know who's reading what...
50. Hmm. I'm going to have to be careful in my phrasing, aren't I?
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Date: 2005-10-21 02:40 am (UTC)42. The counselor I saw this summer was a woman who goes to my church, who is good friends with my mom, who I've known my entire life. I hadn't spoken to her in a few years, but it was awkward... And somehow I still managed to break down crying in front of her and was barely able to stop talking the entire first session. I told her pretty much everything I could get out in a single hour.
43. I have another journal, too. It started at first for a specific set of disordered behaviors that I was encouraging at the time, and now I just put pretty much anything semi-private there. I say "semi-private" because I have friends for that journal as well, a lot of them-- but they don't know me IRL. They only know me online. Only one of them is also a friend on this journal.
46. Grr. That's such a tease. That's like saying, "I have a secret-- but I'm not gonna tell you!" =6
48. That's funny. I used to run an entirely public journal, even after years of having multiple nasty surprises when someone I didn't know was reading read something they shouldn't have; I never learned. Only now have I started using the friends-only and locked options. There are just too many random people I half-know on campus finding my journal this year, and I'd like to make sure I know who's reading what...
50. Hmm. I'm going to have to be careful in my phrasing, aren't I?