Alone in a crowd

[edg]

I was going to whine here about how the dining hall just makes me lonely, because I see all this social activity and I'm not part of it. I had a great metaphor that involved lenses.

Then I remembered that I'm not supposed to be whiny.

So it's gone now.

(By the way, there is at least one person in the immediate area who reads this journal. Please don't take my complaints about being lonely as being passive-aggressive attempts to get you to hang out - I certainly don't mean them that way. I'm just bitching; I keep forgetting that there are people nearby these days who might not take these posts as just me kvetching about something I don't expect anybody to change.)

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SAGA = alienation nation

[thanatos000.livejournal.com]

hey hey, i'm in your latin class. i am friending you. i wrote EDG on my paper when i recognized you. did you see it? then i spoke to you about it after class, if you recall. -lexie

Re: SAGA = alienation nation

[edg.livejournal.com]

I do recall! I was wondering if that was what you'd written - I only caught it out of the corner of my eye. Now I know!

It's good to make your acquaintance. Hopefully we'll be seeing a lot more of each other over the semester. :)

Re: SAGA = alienation nation

[thanatos000.livejournal.com]

so, is EDG the shakespeare reference I'm assuming it to be??? or are you merely Edgy?

Re: SAGA = alienation nation

[edg.livejournal.com]

I'm actually not sure what Shakespeare reference you mean, so. :) It was originally "exquisite dead guy", from the They Might Be Giants song, and got stuck to me by someone on the Vampire: the Masquerade newsgroups, when I got too persnickety about grammar. ;)

Re: SAGA = alienation nation

[thanatos000.livejournal.com]

it is the abbreviation for Edgar from the King Lear. also the acronym for the English Drama Group. he's my favorite character. :)

[mercurial-lily.livejournal.com]

Yeah that doesn't work.
The 'not supposed to be' thing.

It's better to realize that you're not actually as bad as you think, rather than try to convince to stop being a certain way.

Cause, you're not.

...hopefully that won't irritate you for my having said it.

[edg.livejournal.com]

Thank you. And no, it doesn't irritate me.

It's hard to stop thinking of myself as, well, not a very good person. I don't know why. I guess it's comfortable. "If I were a better person, people would want to talk to me/I wouldn't have so much trouble getting to know people/whatever, so I must be pretty awful."

[mercurial-lily.livejournal.com]

Maybe it's more reassuring to have an excuse to rely on, to convince yourself you're a horrible person..

Maybe a lot of people have that problem with getting to know other people, but aren't horrible people...

[archangelbeth]

The other angle is the superiority trick. Or the just plain Outsider one. They combine great! ("I am smarter than all these people, so they don't understand me, and I don't want to stop speaking my crazy Moon language, so whatever.")

Not that I speak from experience or anything... >_> <_<

[phosphodae.livejournal.com]

And here I was thinking how impressively secure you are to be able to come up to a stranger and ask if she was, in fact, me. =]

/still impressed

[phosphodae.livejournal.com]

"... the dining hall just makes me lonely, because I see all this social activity and I'm not part of it."

That is why you'll barely ever see me in the dining hall, and when you do, I'm in a back room, eating quickly and exiting soon thereafter. [I also get there as close to 5:30 as possible, to avoid the crowd.] As soon as I get my hands on a take-out box... I usually do meal exchange in Subway for dinner these days, so that's where I am.

I'd never take your complaints that way. If I've felt like that myself, I'm certainly not going to form any judgments or expectations towards you. =]

[ginny-t.livejournal.com]

I'll eat lunch with you. Just... give me awhile to get there. ;-)

That sucks

[mnair.livejournal.com]

Dude, that sucks. I remember it was similar for me. Maybe it doesn't work the same as when I was there. Do they still have that back room where all the misfitty-type people hang out? That was a pretty friendly place as I recall.